She looks into her eyes the mirror and sees broken brown
shards staring back at her. When did that happen? When had these laughing,
twinkling eyes turn into bottomless pools of pain and regret? Was it the result
of loving too much, or loving the wrong person?
She wanted to let it all out, but the words failed her. How do
you four long years’ worth of emotions in words? How do you explain the bits of
your torn soul seeping out of you? There were so many questions; only questions,
but no answers.
She asked the questions over and over again, but to no
avail. How do you become completely disposable to someone when that person
swore that you were the best thing that ever happened to him? She had seen her
friends tread down that path of broken hearts and shattered dreams, of emotions
taken for granted; but she always said to herself’ “No, he is different, he
would never hurt me that way; he would never knowingly take advantage of my vulnerability
or break my trust.”
Alas, she was so very wrong. Trust was broken. Tears were
spilt. Pain ripped through her soul in a way that it would probably never mend.
Her spirit lay shattered. The smiles no longer reach the eyes. The laughs no
longer emerge from the heart. Something froze within her, never to be thawed. She
learnt a painful yet important lesson: When you love someone 100%, you give
that person the power to destroy you 100%.
When you find that person whom your soul connects with, and
that person wrongs you and leaves, it can take away your ability to ever trust someone
again. It can take away your faith in the almighty force.
No amount of grieving, no amount of remorse can ever heal
the wounds that lay embedded in her heart. Days pass, bringing no peace, no calm,
no relief. She goes on with her life, her trust in tatters.
